My husband is what I would call a very Godly man. I am very lucky. When the going gets tough he ALWAYS says, “Pray about it and turn it over to God”.
Tonight as we were eating dinner and discussing our day, mainly about things that are stressful to me or are worrying me, he said, “Pray about it and turn it over to God”.
For the first time, I found myself rolling my eyes and shrugging my shoulders, as if to say, “yea right!”
Immediately I knew I was wrong to treat God this way. We have been so blessed by Him during times when I swear we thought we were drowning. He always came through for us, so why at that moment did I have doubt that in His time He would not come through again?
I asked God for forgiveness, right there at the table in the restaurant!
Now, at 2:00 AM I have this prayer on my mind that I felt the need to get up out of bed and write.
O Lord, my desire in life it to walk along the path that you have for me, in steadfastness of faith, in meekness of spirit, in lowliness of heart, in gentleness of love. Right now there are so many events in my life that are scattering my thoughts and disturbing the peace in which you alone can give me.
All I have is yours Lord. Do with me what is best for thy will, for I know not what is best.
Let not the cares or duties of this life press on me too heavily. Lord lighten my burden, that I may follow you in quietness, filled with thankfulness and doing all I can to serve you.
Sometimes Lord, the answers to my prayers seem slow.....but I know that You are using me to teach me and I will learn from what I’m going through.
I want to be so attached to you that I will never doubt that you have my best interest in mind. My desire is for my thoughts, my actions, and my life to become more like you every day.
Lord, never let me lose faith and help me banish those doubts when I feel like my prayers are not being answered in “my” timeframe.
I love you Lord, and I love you Perry for always being my rock. Never stop reminding me to ““Pray about it and turn it over to God”.